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2006-10-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

for tha past 2 years plus, this sweet sweet blog of mine has served me well

unfortunately Kimi has convinced me that LJ is tha way to go.

HAHA.

so merepek apek ah.

so anyways people, i have moved to sabreenakbal.livejournal.com

so enjoy there. hahahah.

i may delete this blog soon

because being tha weirdo that i am,

i feel bad for wasting space on tha world wide web.

hahahah

so bullshit sia.

okek. bye peopleessss.

love and everything else.

XOXOXOXO

p.s: to all y'all who dunnoe.. XOXOXO means hugs and kisses.

X stands for either hugs or kisses and tha O will stand for tha other one ah if ya get my drift which i think u probably wouldnt cuz even i wouldnt understand it if i saw it, haha. okek bye.

gay-ness

2006-10-23T03:24:00.000+08:00

geez. got so much to say.

dunnoe if i'll remember it all.

firstly, i think im gonna move to LJ.

haha.

butterfliesandfairysprinkles. how?

so girly lah

gosh, im becoming so bloody gay~

Raya is tomorrow~

yay?

my open house is on saturday i think.

hmmm.

Its supposed to be Kimi but i ter-Limi.

sorry ah kawan. haha.

LJ is wher tha cool people are at?

so u think u damn cool ah u got Lj? haha

I had fuuuuun yesterday!

Thanks KIMI! hahah.

wait, friday didnt go to skool. haha.

horrible i know.

went to parkway wit tha boyfriend just b4 buka.

he needed to get socks.

i think he just wanted to drive somewhere. hah.

den saw nufail and adam there.

sent them halfway back. buka at home.

adzfar, fail and kimi came over to watch saw 2.

couoldnt really tagkap cuz i was talking to adzfar thruout tha movie.

haha.

but i lovee saw.

we all watch saw 3 together okek?

so Ashraf came and sent everyone home...

of course we made plans to go climbing wit Kimi on saturday at Sp.

Actually it was more bouldering aah.

And my body... my poor aching body that hasnt been functioning properly since Ashley fractured his feet is in painnnn now.

but i like. haha.

at least my muscles are being out to use,

and Kimi, my dear boy you can CLIMB.

its fun to just watch him climb.

haha. not cuz he was half naked, cuz ur too fair, HAHA.

cuz he's so confident and relaxed on tha wall, its just amazing...

i was lying down, talking to nufail, wrestling wit adzfar, listening to music, playing cards more den climbing h, and my body is pain from tha pathetic amount of climbing i did. tsk.

den i went home an they headed to town to buka sushi, WITHOUT ME!

im so hurted! ='(

heh.

den i met them again.

window shopping. i hope kimi can get his vans slip ins and that they have his size. =)

and i have just created an LJ acct. so this may cease to be updated.

so we chilled at mac for a bit.. den we went to parkway to play pool.

saw some of tha bds guys like justin and junn yean there.

Nufail went homeee...

den we sent tha very tired Mr Adzfar back. [so sad =( ]

den we went simpang met Adam, Khai, Teddy, Ivan and Bel there. so nice, havent seen them in a bit,

i got to talk to Adam, after so long, it was nice ah, really =)

den we went bowling.

hahah

was fun ah.

ive only bowled 2x b4.

i was sucky at first but i got a stike and shit,

i think we did okay eh kimi. haha.

den we sent dem back.

i was soo fukhin tired ah.

supposed to sahur macs.

but, me and sheens cant fast, AGAIN! fuck,

so yeah told tha parents we were too tired.

woke up early,

sent tha kuching for grooming. damn cute ah.

their bellies got shaved.

so u can see their nipppppppppppples. wahaha.

den did some last min raya shopping. ran some errands.

met ashraf for a while...

viwed houses. came home for buka.

SLEPT st8 after buka til like 12. den came down Yana was here.

went to Riaz to get food, sent her home

went to 7-11. top up petrol den here i am blogging and chatting to kimi bcuz we are lifeless people. haha.

Nufail starts skool today, YAY!

and i prefer tha comments rather den tags ah.

i dunnoe why. hahah. okek. im gonna concentrate on creating my LJ acct now, bye all.

P.s : I'm sorry for tha spelling errors. hahah.

I Miss You - Incubus

2006-10-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

This song,

Its stuck in my head.

How can you not love Incubus?

Limi let me listen to a song off their new album(i think?)

its very mainstream. lets hope its only for that one song.

Maybe i should get Live journal.

Close this one down. haha.

I just need new skin la.

Oh Nufaiiiil? heh.

You know me and how retarded I am when it comes to computers.

And You're not a stalker la.

We all know that~

Eh Kimi, i saw you!! Haha.

Its been like wat, everyday tha past week ah~

Wait your girlfriend(who's my boyfriend, *we are so weird*)

jealous how? hahah.

And we didnt eat at NY NY.

Cuz it was packed.

Im still dreaming bout tha shoes.

Hari Raya!! I know whats tha first thing I gotta do.

I only hope it'll work. haha.

I hope tha people whom i visit will kindly donate to tha

sabreena-really-needs-money-foundation-for tha-newly-shopping-addicts.

And kawan, sorry you didnt get to watch Prison Break.

I feel so guilty lah can?

I could have stayed longer. =(

Sorry!

And im getting pimples!!!

Yalk! This sucks ass!

And Adzfar still wants to get tha white jeans.

Just as long as its not too tight.

Pair it with a wifebeater.

Actually i think a wifebeater and his white linen pants would look goooood.

A boyfriend who's more into fashion den you is quite scary...

Crop sweater. Geez. Well, you learn something new all tha time kan?

Anyways, Saw2 at my place after buka tmrw?

Last day of skool. For this week ah. Yay Yay~

At least next week i can look forward to getting money frm Raya.

I hope I actually do get money ah.

I Miss You - Incubus

To see you when I wake up

Is a gift I didnt think could be real.

To know that you feel the same as I do

Is a three-fold, utopian dream.

You do something to me that I cant explain.

So would I be out of line if I said,

I miss you.

I see your picture,

I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.

You have only been gone ten days,

but already Im wasting away.

I know Ill see you again

Whether far or soon.

But I need you to know that I care

And I miss you.

blogging again...

2006-10-16T01:21:00.000+08:00

this is quite gay,

im blogging again.

haha.

i've been reading kimi's blog

and den it makes me feel like blogging.

so herre i is.

had a great weekend.

My weekends are now mostly always wit tha happy people man.

when did that happen?

ohhh.

and i trimmed my hair

and cut my fringe,

so at first it was like kinda weird and all.

but i kind alike it now.

and i have no more streaks! =(

i told Leslie i wanted den he also cannot make up his mind.

so like watever lah.

and stinky wants to go NY NY on Wednesday,

yay.

food glorious food.

cehh... as if i eat a lot.

shit. 8 more days of fasting,

and den raya!

damn fast la.

and i didnt buy my heels...

i ended up buying a necklace and like, shorts.

i really like dem shorts.

haha.

when is that damn Charmaine gonna pay us???

I need to get red shoes and that red bag!

before i kill myself thinking bout it.

actually im not sure wat shoes i wanna get yet.

haha.

maybe i get these really cute small wedges. which im more likely to use out compared to heels.

but heels would be a breath of fresh air for me la.

tha wedges is also like $3.10 cheaper.

haha. but i cant buy both red.

so i'll stick to small cute wedges.

My mom thinks im clothes crazy.

I am ah.

But really, if i dunt feel confident or comfortable with wat im wearing its gonna affect me.

it dunt hafta be expensive shit or watever.

its something that fits me nice, looks good on me.

duh, imma girl, im allowed to go crazy when it comes to shoes, bags, clothes and accessories kan?

wat am i gonna use to vivocity mang?

shoot. this is where tha idol money would come in verrrry handy,

so i could get me those damn shoes.

argghh. im obsessed.

i should be sent to a farm

where i look after farm animals.

so i cant think of clothes or anything else linked to it...

den again wit tha amount of sheep i be lookin at, id proobably be asleep half tha time.

Hakeem should work in a farm!

haha.

i know this is fucked to say,

but skool is sucha bore now.

i cant stand tha front office module.

but i shall continue.

if i dunt wanna go to skool. i must take MC!!!

haha.

And yes, P Ramlee movies.

I am sure Atuk has em'

must ask him to bring over.

den again i dunnoe when atuk will come over.

so ask him to tell nenek and make her bring next tme she sleeps over.

Jalan Raya~

yay. so fun! haha.

this is one retarded entry.

and ohhhh my god,

El-Sheikh has KICKASS iced lattes!

i swear its better den starbucks!

its soooo good,

and reasonably priced too. i mean, you go to places, an iced latter would cost at least 5 bucks. At El-Sheikh, its $3.50!!

and its sooo good.

You save that $1.50 and you go to tha dollar shop and buy one and a half things!

heh. im sooo crapping ah now. gawwwd.

i cant sleep.

im gonna go lie on my bed and think of black and white sheep.

jumping over a fence or smthin.Like me and Nufail

and now i can imagine one of us not clearing tha fence and falling on our face and both of us laughing our asses off.

My train of thought is haywire!!!heh.

black(me) *baaaaaaaa* JUMPS

white(nufail) *baaaaaaa* JUMPS

black(me) *baaaaaaaaaaaa* JUMPS

white(nufail) *baaaaaaaaa* ...

*oops, terjatuh*

-Crazy laughter follows...-

this is so bloody retareded, if i was in tha right state of mind id delete this post or smthin.

but den again, y'all should already know how retardedly randomly gay i am.

so why hide it.

haha.

night y'all.

this is contradictory but i cant wait for skool tmrw,

i think cuz its a day closer to raya.

i am looking forward to being able to eat, drink etc etc whenever i want to.

heh. after a month, it's gonna be heavenly. =)

My love to my sugar sister, my KOCG-ian.

you're ALWAYS ALWAYS welcome. =D

And love to my stinky big bird carrier man*sings, the carrier mman can in tha background* captain planet. geez, ur getting more and more nicknames. haha.

<3>

while waiting...

2006-10-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

Nufail is sucha blog surfer la.

from Fera's blog she found Afie's.

heh. Actually that's bout it

so now i sound quite retarded.

and noodle has a blog.

and kimi was like ya, im linked to her.

Kimi has a blog.

Tha anti social boy, who actually is getting less anti social because he tried making small talk. haha. that was funny. okek sorry. yeah so, noodle and kimi have blogs anddd nisa has a blog too i just dunnoe which is hers. haha.

Like hello, everyone has a blog. but they use livejournal. heh.

im damn bored la.

Cant eat, drink or ungkz.

Im at tha com lab waiting for lesson to start.

Stinky's supposed to call but he hasnt so im assuming he has some lives to save.

or maybe some kittens. heh.

Everytime im in skool i am soooo tempted not to fast la.

Other den tha time i couldnt anddd my bday cuz i was having gastric. (For real okek)

I've been a good girl. Kinda. Heh.

I want to shooopppp. But if i do i'll probably not have enough money.

I'll probably buy them charles and keith shoes first den wait for raya to buy tha red bag. woohoo.

Im currently obsessed wit red and blue.

But when i window shop, anything green, red or blue will catch my eye.

I'm a girl!

My god when did this happen?

I want to buy heels!

When tha hell have i ever used heels out when im just casually going out?

okek, i shall not answer that question cuz i have ah a few times, under circumstances..

I need clothes.

When aunty leaves, there goes our expandable wadrobe. *sobs*

how bout she go and leave her stuff behind!

I do love her and all.. kinda. haha.

I hate Ns. Reeaaaallly. I'm sure Noodle feels tha same.

haha.

I'm hungrrrrry.

I want to go New York New York.

Mary Ann and Val said it was good.

heh heh.

I'm still hungryy and thirsty,

Its han's bday today.

Happy Birthday sweetheart,

i hope you love ur pressies!!!

Anyway we had a small suprise for him at Mac@ECP

was so sweet of everyone to sacrifice their sleep to come down ah.

thank y'all many many.

And i've been wanting to go City of Angels and Hakeem reminded me yesterday...

We all should go soon! heh.

I'm just randomly writing down whatever's running thru my head,

so that means this may not make sense to all you other people

but it does to me.

haha actually i bet a few months down i'll read this and i'll be like wtf am i blogging about.

and my blog addy is so fukhin gay la.

but got sentimental value okek.

so i should shut up now and concentrate tha hunger pangs away.

And laer when i go home im gonna watch Saw 2 wit yana and nufail~!!

so happy! yay.

and i havent blogged like this in tha longest time. haha.

maybe cuz im letting myself be happy instead of minfucking myself yeahhh.

okek everybody's strolling in class.

10 days left.

counting down.

I can do WHATEVER i want, WHENEVER i want, when this is over.

woohoo.

But den again i'll need monnney,

i should get a job! Anyone?

Okek. stop.

Im saying too much. haha.

Bye.

suprised...

2006-10-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

So it was my 19th birthday yesterday,

And i thought it was going to be uneventful.

Boy was i wrong.

Started off at skool,

thanks for tha 'suprise'

tha birthday card and tha borders card.

And for always making me laugh in class,

and giving me another reason to go to skool. =)

So i would like to thank from tha bottom sekali of my heart

*takes a deep breath*

Nabilah, Aisyah, Natalia, Valerie, Sulaiman,Sujatha, Herman, Brooklyn,Anthea, Desmond ,Ashley, Ashraf, Noodle, Nisa, Syaheed, Adam, Maisarah, Aaron, Ally, William, Teddy, Nadia, Hakeem(Jigglypuff.heh)

-Sheena: Thank you for everything you've dome for me, i couldnt ask for a better sister.

-Nufail:My sugar sister, my other half, you've listened to me rave, rant, complain, seen me through my laughter, smiles and tears. You're tha bestest friend a girl could have and everyday i am grateful to have a person as amazing as youself in my life. =) <3

-Yana: My cousin, tha one who never questions and just listens. You're a beautiful person and its always fun to be in ur company, of course when ur in ur crazy funny mood and not ur angsty i wanna screw anyone that comes in my way mood. But that is quite amusing sometimes too. haha. But i love you tha same. =p

-Adzfar aka Stinky aka big Bird(as in sesame street okek people): Thank you for tha amzingly delicious cheesecake which was a hit with everybody, and tha perfume, i absolutely love it. For your time and company, mostly, for giving me an extra reason to smile tha past month. <3

I wanted to go into more details and thank everyone specifically but den people would just get sick of reading it and i dont think people actually bother bout reading this so, to those who were there and those who wished me, thank yo so very much, it was one of my best if not my best birthday ever. =D and im glad that tha people close to my heart were tha ones there to celebrate it with me. and even tha ones who werent there tho i wish you were, thanks for trying. =)

And if i forgot ur name im sorry!!!

its just one of those random things.

heh.

Much love to all who made my day so so very speacial.

Thank you.

not a year older!!! ='(

2006-10-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

i do not want to turn 19.

you just get nore confused tha older you get.

some things get clearer.

and some, just get more blurred.

keep telling yourself

complications keep life more interesting.

sure it really does.

but sometimes all you crave is peace.

excitement?

2006-09-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

hello there.

excitement.

feels good.

but, when u get excited, you hope

and ultimately, all that excitement and hoping leads to

dissappointment.

So i will not be excited.

haha.

I'm excited cuz my exams are next week

and i know SHIT about front office.

This sucks.

I better study.

which i know i wont til last minute.

Haha. how friggin typical.

Love too all.

And Sukhpreet,

I am so very sorry I cant meet you before you leave.

I love you and take care over there.

Email me and stuff okek?

I'll defiantely email you soon.

Much love sweetheart.

the older the better?

2006-08-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

the older you get

the more confused you'll get,

you're exposed to reality

and suddenly life isnt all sunshine lollipops and rainbows.

funny how life works.

my last project is due on thursday and i havent done anything yet.

it's a group thing.

and next week are my exams.

i get a 2 day break and its straight to IMF.

after IMF is puasa.

geez. everything is just snowballing.

before you know it, i'm gonna be doing my attachment next year.

scary scary thoughts.

haha.

guess that's wat growing up is about.

on a brighter note,

i had tons and tons of fun on Saturday at WOMAD and after.

I'm a womad convert.

seriously, tha acts are so damn amazing.

The atmosphere.....

But you gotta make sure you gots cash when you go.

haha.

Thanks to Nab for letting us crash at your place.

And Ashraf and Adzfar for driving us around.

haha. I'm not sure i really trust Adzfar in tha driver's seat tho.

And Nisa for sharing. Heh.

It was really a lot of fun. =)

Gotta get ready for driving now.

My tummy's kinda crappy tho.

And YaY Nufail! 1 paper left!!!

PARTAAAY tmrw! hahah.

Love to all.

Smucks and hugs.

its been a while

2006-08-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

you are but a fantasy

a dream

where i can only hope and wish

why oh why.

sometimes i wonder

am i not good enough?

*sigh*

nowsadays...

2006-07-17T00:29:00.000+08:00

my life is so stagnantly boring.

last year it was my f&b module

so it was interestin.

now its my front office.

and tha teachers like talk to themselves,

not all ah.

like 2 outta 4.

but tha 2 teahers are tha ones i see tha most often.

oh my god. someone has to save me.

i feel like a zombie.

routine.

i think all humans are incapable of doing tha same thing

over and over again.

question is,

how can i break out o tha cycle?

its come to tha point where i have surrendered to it,

even if im bored

im too lethargic to do anything about it.

its a fukhin disease.

*dies*

wise words

2006-07-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

from meredith grey.

The truth about the truth is that,

it hurts.

That's why we lie.

how can you not love Grey's Anatomy?

='(

2006-07-02T05:11:00.000+08:00

I am cushed.

defeated.

heartbroken.

i dislike France very much right now.

Stupid Henry.

But they tried.

I am still very heartbroken.

its been a while.

2006-06-27T15:47:00.000+08:00

so its tha hoildays now.

i got tha worst eyebrows in tha world.

i went threading..

and when i stood up 3/4 of my eyebrows were gone.

i swear i almost cried.

haha. but it is growing, heh.

so for my dear nabilah in HK who is 5 shades darker.

Noodle made it, *YAY*

initially, it was Mathilda and some other woman Emillie who made it.

Noodle made it into tha wildcard show.

So tha next day when she went for some photoshoot or smthin,

tha producers called her in..

and told her that tha computers jammed up.

So tha final results was that noodle HAD made it into tha top 12.

and Mathilda hadnt.

So now Mathilda is in tha wildcard show,

which is this week.

so you'll get to watch tha spectaculars when you come back next week.

heh.

for now i cant wait to see Sukhi.

Yay. And for tmrw.

Lets hope all is well.

*GO Brazil*

Overrated i noe but wtf, i love Brazil.

Haha. They better beat Ghana tonight.

And Spain and France.

I like both teams right, but

*GO Spain*

heh,

Sheens is supporting France.

because of Henry.heh.

okek, bye for real.

Belaian Jiwa

2006-06-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

I know,

malay.

amazing.

hahah

Belaian Jiwa

Seindah...

tiada lagi

kau ku ingatkan,

sayang kau hilang.

mananti...

biar sampai akhir hayatku di

dunia ini..

kau tahu betapa,

ku sayang padamu,

hanya bidadari sebagai ganti..

hanya takdir menantukan ia...

belaian...

belaian jiwa...

ani i actually got Aisyah to help me translate it.

hahaha.

wat's left

2006-05-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

a gaping hole

once used to be filled

i want to go back

young and carefree.

i didnt have to care.

i didnt have a worry

i don't want it to change.

the dynamics of wat used to be, altered,

left alone

shivering in the cold.

do you even hear wat im saying?

you think you see

you think you know

you think you understand

the complexity that fills my mind

but you don't even listen

do you hear wat you're saying?

empty words meant to make me feel better

but suddenly the hole is just getting bigger

engulfing me whole

until you won't notice my existance

you wouldnt even know if i walked past you

i am a shadow of your past

one you would like to erase

you say you hear me,

but i want you to listen,

to the words im not saying,

Don't assume you know me

or wat im feeling

you talk to me like i am a child

incapable of listening, understanding or speaking for myself

words hang in the air

words i want to speak but afraid to

i've been so scared of losing you

that i never noticed i already have

a long time ago

when my world was happy and carefree

i am brought down back to earth

with reality crashing in

promises are just words until they are fulfilled

i want you to see

to understand

to listen

but you never will

until you realise i am capable

to think, feel touch, hear, smell, see on my own

i will always be an incapable child in your eyes

until you have finally realised

words you spoke were taken into consideration

part of my life

but you refuse to see

veiled by your lame excuses

i hate wat i see when you look at me

a child incapable,

the hole gets bigger everytime...

to be child again..

2006-05-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

i have forgotten...

wat it is like..

to swing so very high..

look up at tha black inky sky...

forget my worries...

and enjoy tha ride...

sand in my shoes...

wind in my hair...

smell of tha night...

smilling...

as i push myself higher and higher...

butterlies in my tummy..

yet feeling so calm...

i must do it again sometime...

before i forget

wat its like...

to once again..

be like a child...

lame but who cares?

hahha.

frustrations.

2006-04-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

Rot and die.

life...

2006-04-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

Back to skool.

8 hours a day,

by tha 3rd lesson everybody cant wait to go home

so tha teacher teaching tha last class has to deal wit our fidgety, talkatives moods.

But i've been quite healthy tha past while.

Playin basketball on Sundays (more like running ard tha court)

but i have fun.

And since last week, rock climbing on fridays.

my arms are aching now.

The national team trains on fridays so you see people wit super toned arms

takin about 4 seconds for tha males and 6 seconds for tha females to climb up a wall i take about 5 mins to get up...

Its crazy.

They like okek attention, go! and they're like bloody jumping off tha wall

damn cool lah, but when ur climbing beside them you feel like...

roight... left foot that rock and they're already been up and down 2x and they're on tha way down ready to do their next set.

Well... more reason to go climbing ey best friend?

Heh.

Next Friday. =)

finally

2006-03-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

Its finally over.

no more Rosette, Petals or OCBC.

Tha joy all of us felt when we left is beyond words.

Its surreal.

*smiles*

Today, all tha people i enjoy working with were in my shift.

And we only had to count cutlery.

And den we had absolutely nothing to do but amuse ourselves,

so bout 7 of us were siting at tha bar area telling ghost stories and crap.

Den we went to tha staff meal table to join the rest and we were listening to music, making fun of each other and juz talking,

I juz had to fall off tha chair laughing.. which made me and everyone laugh harder..

if we had video recorded all of our crap...

I have pictures tho.. so yay. heh.

Im gonna miss working wit tha A class people tho...

But its okek, once we go back to skool our classes are right beside each other and our breaks are mostly tha same. haha.

I shall go sleep all i want for tha next week.

One week break for 13 weeks of free labour.

Talk bout unfair, oh wells, at least 'll have things to do.

Til i dunnoe when.

Love to all.

nowsadays...

2006-03-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

hello.

my 'on-the-job-training' will be over next week,

as of next saturday, i shall be free from the hells of ocbc.

13 weeks. over soon. =)

woohoo.

and my exam is on tha 22nd.

dieeeeee.

wat i am most afraid of is...

plates. yup. plates.

but i must say, i am really gonna miss tha view from ocbc.

especially at night.

and i juz saw tha roster and im gonna be bartender.

yay! not cuz i get to make drinks cuz tha bartender at ocbc mostly juz polishes stuff

cuz i get to enjoy tha view. heh.

and i've been seeing a group of guys playing rugby at tha padang tha past 2 nights.

makes me wanna go for tha sevens even more! yay~

so if all else fails. Nab and Nufail. Tha 3 of us will have our own fun okek? heh.

Much love to all.

whatever.

2006-03-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

fuck it.

seriously.

i dont need shit from anybody.

if you're not happy

bloody fuck off.

I can live my life perfectly fine without you.

Juz dunt ask for me.

Not like you ever would.

Dont talk to me bout being a friend.

I always forget my place wit you.

Thanks for tha reminders.

yay~

2006-02-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

Mummy's coming back tmrw.

YAY!

For ten days.

Den she's off to NZ to see Uncle Marco.

You know when.. somethings juz bugging you.

And it may be that lil gut feeling.

Or juz tha normal time of tha month where everything is juz damn horrible.

You feel all crappy and emotional.

Maybe its juz me.

I feel like crying at everything.

Reading a book. Watching oprah.

Watching American Idol when they dedicate thasongs to like family members or smthin.

Yeah i noe it sounds weird.

I think. Wat I had is gone.

Far far away.

='(

routine.

2006-02-06T00:25:00.000+08:00

i miss my best friend.

i need my best friend.

only she can make me feel sooooo much better.

stupid notice board.

pleaseeeeee meet up tmrw so we can laugh our asses off at random shit.

smucks. hugs and misses.

<333

Lil' Fairy.

i'll be...

2006-02-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

hello once again.
yes, i is bored.
i cant sleep early.
I can but i juz think of everthing that is totally unnecessary
den it'll be harder for me to sleep.
im juz sick of waking up. rosette. go home.
blah blah blah.
tha few nights i get to enjoy.
but how often does tht happen?
im going to petals soon. Joy.
In tha spirit of V-Day, since i shall be spending it wit those i love many many..I wonder why its so difficult to show appreciation and love for tha people that matter most to you.I love you, Such simple words said with sincerity is probably one tha hardest things to say along with I'm sorry and I need help and maybe a few more things but yeah if you get my drift. Why is it so difficult to smile. To do a good deed? Talking bout good deeds, i went to cheers and bought some stuff and i was 20 cents short... I was so confident and all... and i was 20 cents short... so i told tha cashier to hold on so i could draw out money and pay for tha stuff... and he was like.. nah, its okay.. i'll pay tha 20 cents for you. So thank you cashier at cheers who's name i didnt see. Thank you very very many many. =)
Right now I juz wanna get evrything over and done with. I sooo cannot deal with routine. It juz drains you. Like a silent killer. Standing in heels either dead bored trynna find shiet to do or going around wit frustrating customers going tha food isnt hot enough.. tha coffee should be hotter... Or cognac shouldnt be served in a rock glass... Or trynna please other people... Dont speak malay.. yeah and its totally fine for you people to speak your mother tongue in front of me when you're talking bout operations when i am juz joking ard wit my friends in malay.But seriously, if you can talk to tha whole world in ur tongue in frot of everyone you have no bloody right to tell me not to talk in malay. Like fuck off. I'll stop talkin to Nab and Sha in malay when you people bloody stop giving instructions in ur tongue and expect me to noe wtf you want me to do. Life and all its unfairness. i try bein optimistic at least. Im juz ranting. After sucha break, going back there is like mind numbing.i make absolutely no sense sometimes. Enough shiet from me lah. bye.and i love kittieeee~ heh.

Much love,
<333
Lil'Fairy.