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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
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i am feeling...

quite discombobulated...

i am feeling...

like everything is too routine...

i am feeling...

quite empty...

i am feeling...

quite broke...

i am feeling...

too many things that i cant really tell wat i really am feeling...

bottom line is...

i am feeling...

very confused.

i need to unfuck my mind.

and i need...

to stop expecting anything...

being angry is not as bad as being disappointed.

When people have such expectations of you...

Its really very scary...

because you dunnoe if u can really live up to them..

you know ur capable..

but how do you come out of your shell...

I dunt want to live life knowing I could have done that...

I dont want to live life saying 'If Only'

We dont get many chances...

Grab hold of every oppturnity...

Every human being is capable of so many beautiful things..

but also many things that may devestate everything known to us..

With such power in our hands...

Its no wonder we may sometimes abuse it.

The ability to make someone smile..

that your heart expands and you feel it could just burst...

The ability to make someone feel so fucked up..

They'd cry to sleep evrynight..

Words and Actions are so strong.

Use them wisely.

Im juz feeling fucked.

You know how if u dont do something you think wat if i had?

den when you actually do it ur like, wtf did i do?

So if u dunt do it,

you'll wonder,

if you do it..

you'll regret it.

Thats a bad place to be at...

And i think im there...

wondering...

Fuck it.

Im gonna enjoy my life tha best way possible.

Smucks to all who bother reading this...

<333

Lil' Fairy

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Monday, January 09, 2006
Happy New Year...

Not a good way to start the new year.
but that shall be left where it should be.

since Nab said I had to post 5 random things bout myself...
I'll do it...

1) I laugh at tha most inappropriate times.
For example : - When Val fell down and got her gash. I laughed.
- When I could not change my tablecloth and almost failed. I laughed.
Its out of nervousness and not because im mean spirited or watever.

2) I am actually a very shy person. I can be totally crazy and outgoing. And there are times when I revert to my old self who's quiet, introverted and keeps to herself.

3) I love spending time alone in my room. Especially in tha middle of tha night. Where I can sit outside alone... and just think. Quietly. I can hear me, my thoughts.

4) Music can really make or break my mood. But so can my friends and family. Thats why i love y'all so. =)

5) I dunnoe wat else. Maybe when i think of one more i'll post it okek? heh.

Smucks all. Happy New Year.
I love ya'll.
<333

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