Wednesday, June 30, 2004
sulaiman
wokays i noe i juz wrote in but i juz had a good talk wit man and i hafta let it out.. sweets, i noe we kinda drifted esp during tha holidays, im sorry i wasnt there fer ya when i knew u were hurtin... im happy fer u and lisz... juz be careful wokays, innocent til proven guilty... im jealous of zizie... not of her but of wat a great fren she's been to you while i should have been dat person... dont tell her i said dat... and best fren intuition bout that thing you found out uh~ hahah only somone who's been wit me since sec 1 eill noe dat, ive been thru sooooo much shit witcha, good and bad.. retaining and all... readin ur blog thang tho its not really blog, i understand betta and ur poems are really good, very deep and insightful, i like em! a lot~ no, i love em~ and i love u 2~ nobidy could replace u in ma life and i mean it, ur one one of a kind... heheh... and afta o's i'll still hang wit u and bob and hafiz but u guys will stick to simei and pasir ris... boring uh~ yunnoe meh, town and hmm town? hahah wokays, we can compromise wokays~ i love u much and much and thank u fer always bein ther fer meh... and im sorry if ive been a bitch and if i have ignored u wokays~ *hugs and kisses* take care swetz, i see ya in skool tmrw~ Peace out y'all~
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nuthin but mah undies on~
wanted to blog last nyte but there was tha alomst nationwide power failure.. was fun!!! haha everybody screaming, all those mat2 all... den ma dad also came to tha back cuz we were showing him dat not only our block was affected den he also screamed! ahah dat was hysterical den we walked to tha lift landing to check tha lifts, there was one on tha 7th floor, juz above mine and tha lift door was open and there was a red light blinking, it read power failure... very tha freaky! haha,i mean cmon its like bloody dark and there's dis red light blinkin and tha lift looks so eerie and ma bro as usual was tha fraidy cat, he woundt even leave tha seat or let go of tha candle den ma mo stared at him and he freaked out, dat boy is scaring me, he sucha.. fraidy cat, i dunnoe wat he is NOT scared off... ... hahah... power came back on around 11.45? i slept only afta dat, didnt meet ariff, dat boy uh! he was sayin i call u at 5.45! den he didnt call at all, i asked ma mom to send me to skool in tha end since he didnt call me to confirn if we were goin to skool togetha, al-hafiz think dat we're still togetha, he still dunnoe we were messin wit him to get tha $10, idiot.. hahah... mrs kow was so pissed wit our class oday cuz we all didnt hand up our holiday homework.. ma malay o level oral is dis friday! wat tha hell!!! scaweeee! me, malay... ugh! so dont mix... dieee... haha, talk to lisz a lil last nyte, tha gurl sulaiman is currently interested in... she was joel,tha tall skinny la-salle joel's ex gurlfren... ma sis said she tha one who went off wit tha italian bastard, hmm, juz want man to be careful... its only been 10 days and he's head over heels, so as she but still... i wrote down a list of things i missed bout him... hahha, it was like, damn long!!! i swear! its all thoses lil things man! gawd... 8 days... *wonderin when will i see you again?* and i washed ma reebok shoes afta everybody nagging at me bout how dirty it was and ma grandma was goin on and on bout how when she was in skool they made sure their shoes were clean and all dat... i like ma shoes street, im tellin ya, it looks so bloody weird clean wokays! haha... now i wanna email nufail ma song list and try and start ma compo dat i owe mrs kow, den i shall be off for tuition and hopefully willie's ther.. he so tha cute can? hahah i mean i definately dont like him but he's so cute, and tha fact dat i was sitting on tha otha floor den tha kitten they found was strolling in so i was snapping ma fingers at it, den he came up, took tha kitten den he came to me and was like, u wanna touch? hahha i dunnoe, juz like very tha sweet can? i didnt touch it, like pai seh.. haha and ma tuition teacher was like, u scared of cats uh? haloooo i loveee cats! i love dogs! i love even snakes! (but i have this irrational fear of cockroaches! they juz freak me out!) okay okay, betta get a move on... and sulaiman's online! woohoo~ hey sweetz! hahah peace out y'all~
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
confusion confusion
i juz realised dat ma blogs dunt show mah titles... like, wtf have i been naming em for? gawddddddd... was sooo sad last nyte, talked to him, and he compared me to someone he wasnt even close to, afta i put down i sms-ed him , now i noe how much i mean to u and he was like stop crapping or watever... den he ended up tellin me wat was really goin on, he could have juz said smthin earlier ryte... gawd and i totally understand how he feels... evrythin's changing... i still miss him loads tho... 1 week, 7 days... dats tha longest so far... amd kham said hi! whoa! so happy! miss her loadsa, its aite, i shall be joining ya people at tp next year yeah? hahha, sham juz told me tha course i want is in high demand, as in his fwen had 14 points and she still had to appeal! 14 points man~ how am i gonna get less den dat? im so dead! fuck man! thinkin bout him now... i told him tha truth, wondered if i was juz some play thing, he said i should noe when he's fer real and when he crapping... which is true, its juz he juz dunt seem to care sometimes, and i admit i do get paranoid too... im so used to havin tha guy in love wit me...hahah, easy to manipulate, and they much more... vocal... like now... i dunnoe wat he thinkin or feelin sometimes... dats wats so frustrating... but at least it keeps me on ma toes, i got comfortable last time and when i got comfortable, i got bored... fast.. so yeah... at least he's got mah attention and if anybody reads dis, dont ask me who it is and dont try to guess... no use wokays, im not tellin, its juz someone y'all dunnoe... but i think im in love, never felt dis way before... wtf am i sayin? ohh gawd i dunnoe... i like dis song adam told me about, reminds me of him and how we used to meet up even for a while juz to grab some grub or watever... he's too busy now, i miss how i could juz call him anytime during tha holidays and he's have time for me... well dis is tha song niwae...
Pancakes for one
Of Montreal
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
Cocktails for one are never enchanting
because having drinks with you was such fun
Cocktails for one are no fun no fun no fun
Standing near the vendor on the platform
waiting for your train
But yet again you’re not on it
and I’m crestfallen holding a drooping flower bouquet
A sundae for one is never delicious
because eating junk food with you was such fun
A Sunday for one is no fun
All I’ve left of you is a photograph
which only upsets me
cause I can’t draw your attention
your frozen in time
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
reminds me of adam too dis song, he always sings it, dats ow i got hooked... hahha laters people, maybe tonyte i'll blog... peace y'all~
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Monday, June 28, 2004
skool~
ferst day back.. wasnt dat bad... wanted to sleep during accounts! haha mrs jonoh let us off early for art, i was doin it fer only like 20 mins den she was like okay pack up cuz she had meeting den she wasnt in class.. haha, but wednesday and friday and saturday maybe got art... *art overload* got tuition later.. yalkz! dont feel like goin :( ma grandparents are home... :( i was enjoying maself at home alone... ugh... so niwae tha hippie fell asleep, dats y he didnt answer tha phone or reply, til like 15 mins afta i slept! so spoiler...he said ma sms was damn irritating.. haha, oh well... and i was late fer skool today!!! WHY? cuz ma damn bro! we were walkin to tha car park and he was like Ma~ i think i ter-berak! in his pants! bloody hell! den me and ma mom walked to car den she gave me money to grab a cab... took me 15 damn minuted to get a damn cab.. so i ran a lil into skool den like heck, den saw suhairi, jogging in... den he walk wit me, den all of a sudden, we were late! and tha damn prefect said only tha ferst bell had rung! dumbarses... missed sulaiman a lot! was really good to see him! and ros also! whoa! had a gooood talk wit her bout... stuff.... dats y i only went fer art fer 20 mins, was talkin to her... and hach said she liked ma bag, okay quite a lot of people uh! but tha WRONG people man! damn! hahah.. niwae, got sambal uh at home, wanna eat... yummy... and look for songs to lets nufail burn fer meh! yay! peace out y'all~
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
fuck
feelin extra crappy! had fun at nufail's house today tho! loads! thanks fer tha skirt babe! and lettin me try ya tops and me eatin ya food and juz bein ther.. haha.. b4, hhad class ugama but nobody was ther so we went to fetch ma bro at sovver practise den go macdonalds at ecp, i didnt eat cuz i eat a lot at home already, niwae we went ther in tudung wokays! i looked so crappy! saw ashraf, tha talented artist and singer in 4c last yr one, hhe didnt see me tho, he werks at mccafe, wit kiang tuck i guess... i heard tha pancaked for one song! nice! okay so adam has good taste in songs, wasts new uh? haha... ma dad wont lemme watch selena.. dats y im so pissed! i really really really wanna watch it! i havent been able to catch tha wholt thing fully! and tha guy she likes(her husband? see i dunnoe!!!) is hott! haha wokays, sorry... supposed to meet hippie today, i wanted to since we coundt meet yesterday, he like not happy, i called he said he at home, den i sms-ed asked if he really didnt wanna go out, den he told me he at bedok, fineeeee gawd, im sorry wokays! i shoundt have tried to meet up wit u, im sorry for missing you, its been 5 days and we havent really talked on tha phone, we did dat nyte, fer a few hours.. friday nyte... den he was juz like, crappy lah... maybe its ma fault, think he's sick of meh, i tried calling him juz now but he didnt answer, so i sms-ed him.. no reply... im sorry for bein a leech, irritating burden, blah blah blah, i'll try not to care anymore wokays! gawd and i have skool tmrw, i dunt wanna go, im not lookin forward! and i wanan go back to lorong melayu! i hate dis hell hole, stupid young mats were disturbin me! young idiots wokays! they were like all hi, hi den i ignore they were like sombong sey! so i turned and waved, den dat time in front of ma sis and bro they were like, kak, ada budak dari blok sebelah nak kakak nyer nombor, i was like wtf, and i juz shut up, never say anythin, ma sis told me mom and they always make fun of me now! sickenin wokays! so sick of dis life! fuck man! and i saw dis blog juz now at nufail house.. made me cry, i never knew a guy could love a girl so much, i am amazed! i am also feelin sad and depressed cuz i thought if i cannot meet him i can at least hear his voice b4 i go for skool tmrw, feelin damn paranoid now yunnoe.. fuck mannnnnnnnn....... i wish i could go away, far far far away, wher no one knows meh...
I think I'm breaking out
I'm going to leave you now
Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting off my words before I speak (Cutting off my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting off my words before I speak (Cutting off my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
yellowcard
way away
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werd up~
feelin sad... hippie go out wit his cuzzen~ he sms me, den when i didnt reply he called, ma hp was off cuzz i only had one bar left.. den he called yana... he was worried! unbelievable! he was worried! hahah so touched? in a weird way, never knew he cared! hahah... had swensens today, wit ma mom, bro, yana, sheena and syaheed, ma mom seems to be happy bout ma sis and syaheed, i mean she dunnoe dat they togetha but she noes that they dating... had steak, kinda lame portion uh and celebrity brownie!!! heaven i tell u~ whouaaaa~ so goooooooood... still depressed, wanna see hippie.. dunnoe if can or not tmrw... :( 4 days, it'll be 5 tmrw... he said we keep on meetin up... he said dat almost evry 2 days like dat we meet.. well its been 4 days! and i miss u... :( i didnt think i would, i juz do all of a sudden, i was okay juz now, why tha hell did he hafta worry? ugh fuck uh~ i miss nufail also... but she in a not-so-good mood... ugh~ mai shld be goin but she be wit bfc lahh... fuck... blah blah blah......... and tha whole reason cuz i miss tha bloody hippie, den when he see dis he be all kembang blah blah blahhhhhhhhhh sick uh!
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
garlic breath
garlic bread for breakfast.. haha... ma breath will be sure to kill a vampire... hahah, im goin out wit ma mommy today! yay~ get stuff.. *wink2* so evil uh! hahah ibrahim called me, pretend to be kadir's younger brother and all.. had fun talkin to him and kadir uh, kinda weird tho.. he quite funnie... too bad i dunt like him anymore... den he can joke2 ask me too be his gf and all.. we were laughing and laughing a lot uh... den at nyte, tha hippie called me, i was like? he awake? yay! den we talk2 til like 2+ den he already stoned uh, and i was thinkin okay uh, juz a few more minutes to tha france and greece match and i bloody fell asleep! dammit~ haha and france bloody lost! like, wtf!?!?!? sick uh! nvm , i still get to see an egland and france game yeaw~ trezeguet and henry and zinadane... ouh! hahah and i still dunnoe how to use this thang! go blogskins den dunnoe do wat.. like wtf man... and tha hippie has a blogspot! weird man~ of all people uh... but he dunt use also cuz he also dunt understand.. hahah, nuff said, shall update if i got to buy anythang *wheeeeeeeeeeeee* need tha toilet now.. hahah peace out y'all~
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Friday, June 25, 2004
i dunt understand
somebody teach how to use this thang, how y'all put tha picture thang man? ugh.. and mine is PINK!!! for gawd sakes... of all colours.. wat was i thinkin, i hafta change it, i want butterfly pictureeeee *wheeeeee* okay, madness, found out shaikh slash and his gurlfwen broke up, poor guy, she's so mean! she went back to her ex boyfren... tha poor guy's heartbroken... dat'll be wat 2 or 3x dis yr? haha...and there was an article on modest mouse in tha life section of tha straits times today... uh oh..adam will not be happy... ouh yeah, i hafta say i went for tha linkin park gig on tuesday! it was so funnnnnnnnnn! and i survived in drawstring pants and slippers! murder i tell u! evrybody kept stepping on ma foot, and i lost one side 2x cuz everybody was moshing (thanks uh maria!!!) hahah.. her frens were teaching these ang moh kids how to swear in malay which was funnie den one of tha ang moh gurls came near us later on while we were moshing and she fell and me maria and syaf pulled her up.. gawd! and they kept throwing water... we got in free niwae, we cheated! *tha horror* haha.. they didnt tear off tha ticket stubs so me and syaf and yana re-used tha tix...so cool and evil and horrible. such cheapskates we are... i didnt get to see much niwae and ther were loadsa people outside tha padang juz listening too... they were sprawled on tha floor listenin to free music while we were in there jumping screaming singing and moshing along to linkin park, and they all looked so sexayyyyyy, and sweaty and lickable.. esp rob.. whoa! chester and joe han's hair was like totally crappy and we sang happy birthday to janet, no idea who tha hell she is but since chester asked us to sing to her.. we loal fans *ma arse* sang to her *awwwwwww* hahah i had art todayyyyyyyy, i came at 12.15? and everybody else came at 8.30... i dunnoe how they can survive whole day of art, and i come late also not as if jonoh noe.. she had meetin tha wholeeeee day so we all slack, walk2 around den she had lunch break, evrybody do their werk all.. when she go, we all go canteen, eat, do nuthin... man i feel alone in skool sometimes, evrybody has somebody! i want to be out! i cant wait til afta tha o's! i wanna go tp! and why am i not ther now? cuz i played around too damn much... i wanna ask ma dad go simpang tonyte ah, watch france vs greece *go france!* wahah, england lost to portugal... hahah portugal and france showdown, portugal in home ground... got chance... i dunt wanna go back to skool on monday! dats so bloody crappy! and our timetabke will be like changed, saw mr muru juz now, 26 outta tha 34 students in ma class are potential o level failures, how amazing is dat? tha students who only passed one subject hafta be attached to one of tha HOd's and do werk til 5.30, skool ends at 3 for us now... sadness! not as if i got anybody to meet niwae, no life! i hata study! i hafta pass maths! dats like tha most impt thing ryte now! passing maths! and get an A grade for english, scared i cant do it.thinkin bout tha o;s makes me stressed man, okay who woundt be ryte? everybody thinks i damn slack, i dunt care.. hulloooooo, i do wokay! im juz not as hardwerkin as yana, i salute her, studey very hard.. evryday come hone sut down for hours and study, i dunt have tha stamina man! maths maths maths! afta dis year i hope ther is very lil of maths for me! so sick of it, okay nuff said herre. i'll probably post smthin else here later outta boredom, wahaha, im sleepyyyyy ugh! and mac sms-ed me! said he missed me, den dunnoe we were talkin den he said he still had feelings for me, when i said i kinda was interested in some gu he said he was jealous, funnie, i swear! okay enuff enuff...layer people, peace y'all~
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sulaiman
wokays i noe i juz wrote in but i juz had a good talk wit man and i hafta let it out.. sweets, i noe we kinda drifted esp during tha holidays, im sorry i wasnt there fer ya when i knew u were hurtin... im happy fer u and lisz... juz be careful wokays, innocent til proven guilty... im jealous of zizie... not of her but of wat a great fren she's been to you while i should have been dat person... dont tell her i said dat... and best fren intuition bout that thing you found out uh~ hahah only somone who's been wit me since sec 1 eill noe dat, ive been thru sooooo much shit witcha, good and bad.. retaining and all... readin ur blog thang tho its not really blog, i understand betta and ur poems are really good, very deep and insightful, i like em! a lot~ no, i love em~ and i love u 2~ nobidy could replace u in ma life and i mean it, ur one one of a kind... heheh... and afta o's i'll still hang wit u and bob and hafiz but u guys will stick to simei and pasir ris... boring uh~ yunnoe meh, town and hmm town? hahah wokays, we can compromise wokays~ i love u much and much and thank u fer always bein ther fer meh... and im sorry if ive been a bitch and if i have ignored u wokays~ *hugs and kisses* take care swetz, i see ya in skool tmrw~ Peace out y'all~
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nuthin but mah undies on~
wanted to blog last nyte but there was tha alomst nationwide power failure.. was fun!!! haha everybody screaming, all those mat2 all... den ma dad also came to tha back cuz we were showing him dat not only our block was affected den he also screamed! ahah dat was hysterical den we walked to tha lift landing to check tha lifts, there was one on tha 7th floor, juz above mine and tha lift door was open and there was a red light blinking, it read power failure... very tha freaky! haha,i mean cmon its like bloody dark and there's dis red light blinkin and tha lift looks so eerie and ma bro as usual was tha fraidy cat, he woundt even leave tha seat or let go of tha candle den ma mo stared at him and he freaked out, dat boy is scaring me, he sucha.. fraidy cat, i dunnoe wat he is NOT scared off... ... hahah... power came back on around 11.45? i slept only afta dat, didnt meet ariff, dat boy uh! he was sayin i call u at 5.45! den he didnt call at all, i asked ma mom to send me to skool in tha end since he didnt call me to confirn if we were goin to skool togetha, al-hafiz think dat we're still togetha, he still dunnoe we were messin wit him to get tha $10, idiot.. hahah... mrs kow was so pissed wit our class oday cuz we all didnt hand up our holiday homework.. ma malay o level oral is dis friday! wat tha hell!!! scaweeee! me, malay... ugh! so dont mix... dieee... haha, talk to lisz a lil last nyte, tha gurl sulaiman is currently interested in... she was joel,tha tall skinny la-salle joel's ex gurlfren... ma sis said she tha one who went off wit tha italian bastard, hmm, juz want man to be careful... its only been 10 days and he's head over heels, so as she but still... i wrote down a list of things i missed bout him... hahha, it was like, damn long!!! i swear! its all thoses lil things man! gawd... 8 days... *wonderin when will i see you again?* and i washed ma reebok shoes afta everybody nagging at me bout how dirty it was and ma grandma was goin on and on bout how when she was in skool they made sure their shoes were clean and all dat... i like ma shoes street, im tellin ya, it looks so bloody weird clean wokays! haha... now i wanna email nufail ma song list and try and start ma compo dat i owe mrs kow, den i shall be off for tuition and hopefully willie's ther.. he so tha cute can? hahah i mean i definately dont like him but he's so cute, and tha fact dat i was sitting on tha otha floor den tha kitten they found was strolling in so i was snapping ma fingers at it, den he came up, took tha kitten den he came to me and was like, u wanna touch? hahha i dunnoe, juz like very tha sweet can? i didnt touch it, like pai seh.. haha and ma tuition teacher was like, u scared of cats uh? haloooo i loveee cats! i love dogs! i love even snakes! (but i have this irrational fear of cockroaches! they juz freak me out!) okay okay, betta get a move on... and sulaiman's online! woohoo~ hey sweetz! hahah peace out y'all~
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004
confusion confusion
i juz realised dat ma blogs dunt show mah titles... like, wtf have i been naming em for? gawddddddd... was sooo sad last nyte, talked to him, and he compared me to someone he wasnt even close to, afta i put down i sms-ed him , now i noe how much i mean to u and he was like stop crapping or watever... den he ended up tellin me wat was really goin on, he could have juz said smthin earlier ryte... gawd and i totally understand how he feels... evrythin's changing... i still miss him loads tho... 1 week, 7 days... dats tha longest so far... amd kham said hi! whoa! so happy! miss her loadsa, its aite, i shall be joining ya people at tp next year yeah? hahha, sham juz told me tha course i want is in high demand, as in his fwen had 14 points and she still had to appeal! 14 points man~ how am i gonna get less den dat? im so dead! fuck man! thinkin bout him now... i told him tha truth, wondered if i was juz some play thing, he said i should noe when he's fer real and when he crapping... which is true, its juz he juz dunt seem to care sometimes, and i admit i do get paranoid too... im so used to havin tha guy in love wit me...hahah, easy to manipulate, and they much more... vocal... like now... i dunnoe wat he thinkin or feelin sometimes... dats wats so frustrating... but at least it keeps me on ma toes, i got comfortable last time and when i got comfortable, i got bored... fast.. so yeah... at least he's got mah attention and if anybody reads dis, dont ask me who it is and dont try to guess... no use wokays, im not tellin, its juz someone y'all dunnoe... but i think im in love, never felt dis way before... wtf am i sayin? ohh gawd i dunnoe... i like dis song adam told me about, reminds me of him and how we used to meet up even for a while juz to grab some grub or watever... he's too busy now, i miss how i could juz call him anytime during tha holidays and he's have time for me... well dis is tha song niwae...
Pancakes for one
Of Montreal
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
Cocktails for one are never enchanting
because having drinks with you was such fun
Cocktails for one are no fun no fun no fun
Standing near the vendor on the platform
waiting for your train
But yet again you’re not on it
and I’m crestfallen holding a drooping flower bouquet
A sundae for one is never delicious
because eating junk food with you was such fun
A Sunday for one is no fun
All I’ve left of you is a photograph
which only upsets me
cause I can’t draw your attention
your frozen in time
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
reminds me of adam too dis song, he always sings it, dats ow i got hooked... hahha laters people, maybe tonyte i'll blog... peace y'all~
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Monday, June 28, 2004
skool~
ferst day back.. wasnt dat bad... wanted to sleep during accounts! haha mrs jonoh let us off early for art, i was doin it fer only like 20 mins den she was like okay pack up cuz she had meeting den she wasnt in class.. haha, but wednesday and friday and saturday maybe got art... *art overload* got tuition later.. yalkz! dont feel like goin :( ma grandparents are home... :( i was enjoying maself at home alone... ugh... so niwae tha hippie fell asleep, dats y he didnt answer tha phone or reply, til like 15 mins afta i slept! so spoiler...he said ma sms was damn irritating.. haha, oh well... and i was late fer skool today!!! WHY? cuz ma damn bro! we were walkin to tha car park and he was like Ma~ i think i ter-berak! in his pants! bloody hell! den me and ma mom walked to car den she gave me money to grab a cab... took me 15 damn minuted to get a damn cab.. so i ran a lil into skool den like heck, den saw suhairi, jogging in... den he walk wit me, den all of a sudden, we were late! and tha damn prefect said only tha ferst bell had rung! dumbarses... missed sulaiman a lot! was really good to see him! and ros also! whoa! had a gooood talk wit her bout... stuff.... dats y i only went fer art fer 20 mins, was talkin to her... and hach said she liked ma bag, okay quite a lot of people uh! but tha WRONG people man! damn! hahah.. niwae, got sambal uh at home, wanna eat... yummy... and look for songs to lets nufail burn fer meh! yay! peace out y'all~
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
fuck
feelin extra crappy! had fun at nufail's house today tho! loads! thanks fer tha skirt babe! and lettin me try ya tops and me eatin ya food and juz bein ther.. haha.. b4, hhad class ugama but nobody was ther so we went to fetch ma bro at sovver practise den go macdonalds at ecp, i didnt eat cuz i eat a lot at home already, niwae we went ther in tudung wokays! i looked so crappy! saw ashraf, tha talented artist and singer in 4c last yr one, hhe didnt see me tho, he werks at mccafe, wit kiang tuck i guess... i heard tha pancaked for one song! nice! okay so adam has good taste in songs, wasts new uh? haha... ma dad wont lemme watch selena.. dats y im so pissed! i really really really wanna watch it! i havent been able to catch tha wholt thing fully! and tha guy she likes(her husband? see i dunnoe!!!) is hott! haha wokays, sorry... supposed to meet hippie today, i wanted to since we coundt meet yesterday, he like not happy, i called he said he at home, den i sms-ed asked if he really didnt wanna go out, den he told me he at bedok, fineeeee gawd, im sorry wokays! i shoundt have tried to meet up wit u, im sorry for missing you, its been 5 days and we havent really talked on tha phone, we did dat nyte, fer a few hours.. friday nyte... den he was juz like, crappy lah... maybe its ma fault, think he's sick of meh, i tried calling him juz now but he didnt answer, so i sms-ed him.. no reply... im sorry for bein a leech, irritating burden, blah blah blah, i'll try not to care anymore wokays! gawd and i have skool tmrw, i dunt wanna go, im not lookin forward! and i wanan go back to lorong melayu! i hate dis hell hole, stupid young mats were disturbin me! young idiots wokays! they were like all hi, hi den i ignore they were like sombong sey! so i turned and waved, den dat time in front of ma sis and bro they were like, kak, ada budak dari blok sebelah nak kakak nyer nombor, i was like wtf, and i juz shut up, never say anythin, ma sis told me mom and they always make fun of me now! sickenin wokays! so sick of dis life! fuck man! and i saw dis blog juz now at nufail house.. made me cry, i never knew a guy could love a girl so much, i am amazed! i am also feelin sad and depressed cuz i thought if i cannot meet him i can at least hear his voice b4 i go for skool tmrw, feelin damn paranoid now yunnoe.. fuck mannnnnnnnn....... i wish i could go away, far far far away, wher no one knows meh...
I think I'm breaking out
I'm going to leave you now
Theres nothing for me here, it's all the same
And even though I know
That everything might go
Go downhill from here, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
You can't stop me now
You can't hold me down
You can't keep me here, I'm on my way
I've made it this far now
And I'm not burning out
No matter what you say, I'm not afraid
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (Feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting off my words before I speak (Cutting off my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Letting out the noise inside of me (Letting out the noise inside of me)
Every window pane is shattering (Every window pane is shattering)
Cutting off my words before I speak (Cutting off my words)
This is how it feels to not believe
Way away away from here I'll be
Way away away so you can see
How it feels to be alone and not believe (feels to be alone and not believe)
Feels to be alone and not believe anything
yellowcard
way away
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werd up~
feelin sad... hippie go out wit his cuzzen~ he sms me, den when i didnt reply he called, ma hp was off cuzz i only had one bar left.. den he called yana... he was worried! unbelievable! he was worried! hahah so touched? in a weird way, never knew he cared! hahah... had swensens today, wit ma mom, bro, yana, sheena and syaheed, ma mom seems to be happy bout ma sis and syaheed, i mean she dunnoe dat they togetha but she noes that they dating... had steak, kinda lame portion uh and celebrity brownie!!! heaven i tell u~ whouaaaa~ so goooooooood... still depressed, wanna see hippie.. dunnoe if can or not tmrw... :( 4 days, it'll be 5 tmrw... he said we keep on meetin up... he said dat almost evry 2 days like dat we meet.. well its been 4 days! and i miss u... :( i didnt think i would, i juz do all of a sudden, i was okay juz now, why tha hell did he hafta worry? ugh fuck uh~ i miss nufail also... but she in a not-so-good mood... ugh~ mai shld be goin but she be wit bfc lahh... fuck... blah blah blah......... and tha whole reason cuz i miss tha bloody hippie, den when he see dis he be all kembang blah blah blahhhhhhhhhh sick uh!
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
garlic breath
garlic bread for breakfast.. haha... ma breath will be sure to kill a vampire... hahah, im goin out wit ma mommy today! yay~ get stuff.. *wink2* so evil uh! hahah ibrahim called me, pretend to be kadir's younger brother and all.. had fun talkin to him and kadir uh, kinda weird tho.. he quite funnie... too bad i dunt like him anymore... den he can joke2 ask me too be his gf and all.. we were laughing and laughing a lot uh... den at nyte, tha hippie called me, i was like? he awake? yay! den we talk2 til like 2+ den he already stoned uh, and i was thinkin okay uh, juz a few more minutes to tha france and greece match and i bloody fell asleep! dammit~ haha and france bloody lost! like, wtf!?!?!? sick uh! nvm , i still get to see an egland and france game yeaw~ trezeguet and henry and zinadane... ouh! hahah and i still dunnoe how to use this thang! go blogskins den dunnoe do wat.. like wtf man... and tha hippie has a blogspot! weird man~ of all people uh... but he dunt use also cuz he also dunt understand.. hahah, nuff said, shall update if i got to buy anythang *wheeeeeeeeeeeee* need tha toilet now.. hahah peace out y'all~
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Friday, June 25, 2004
i dunt understand
somebody teach how to use this thang, how y'all put tha picture thang man? ugh.. and mine is PINK!!! for gawd sakes... of all colours.. wat was i thinkin, i hafta change it, i want butterfly pictureeeee *wheeeeee* okay, madness, found out shaikh slash and his gurlfwen broke up, poor guy, she's so mean! she went back to her ex boyfren... tha poor guy's heartbroken... dat'll be wat 2 or 3x dis yr? haha...and there was an article on modest mouse in tha life section of tha straits times today... uh oh..adam will not be happy... ouh yeah, i hafta say i went for tha linkin park gig on tuesday! it was so funnnnnnnnnn! and i survived in drawstring pants and slippers! murder i tell u! evrybody kept stepping on ma foot, and i lost one side 2x cuz everybody was moshing (thanks uh maria!!!) hahah.. her frens were teaching these ang moh kids how to swear in malay which was funnie den one of tha ang moh gurls came near us later on while we were moshing and she fell and me maria and syaf pulled her up.. gawd! and they kept throwing water... we got in free niwae, we cheated! *tha horror* haha.. they didnt tear off tha ticket stubs so me and syaf and yana re-used tha tix...so cool and evil and horrible. such cheapskates we are... i didnt get to see much niwae and ther were loadsa people outside tha padang juz listening too... they were sprawled on tha floor listenin to free music while we were in there jumping screaming singing and moshing along to linkin park, and they all looked so sexayyyyyy, and sweaty and lickable.. esp rob.. whoa! chester and joe han's hair was like totally crappy and we sang happy birthday to janet, no idea who tha hell she is but since chester asked us to sing to her.. we loal fans *ma arse* sang to her *awwwwwww* hahah i had art todayyyyyyyy, i came at 12.15? and everybody else came at 8.30... i dunnoe how they can survive whole day of art, and i come late also not as if jonoh noe.. she had meetin tha wholeeeee day so we all slack, walk2 around den she had lunch break, evrybody do their werk all.. when she go, we all go canteen, eat, do nuthin... man i feel alone in skool sometimes, evrybody has somebody! i want to be out! i cant wait til afta tha o's! i wanna go tp! and why am i not ther now? cuz i played around too damn much... i wanna ask ma dad go simpang tonyte ah, watch france vs greece *go france!* wahah, england lost to portugal... hahah portugal and france showdown, portugal in home ground... got chance... i dunt wanna go back to skool on monday! dats so bloody crappy! and our timetabke will be like changed, saw mr muru juz now, 26 outta tha 34 students in ma class are potential o level failures, how amazing is dat? tha students who only passed one subject hafta be attached to one of tha HOd's and do werk til 5.30, skool ends at 3 for us now... sadness! not as if i got anybody to meet niwae, no life! i hata study! i hafta pass maths! dats like tha most impt thing ryte now! passing maths! and get an A grade for english, scared i cant do it.thinkin bout tha o;s makes me stressed man, okay who woundt be ryte? everybody thinks i damn slack, i dunt care.. hulloooooo, i do wokay! im juz not as hardwerkin as yana, i salute her, studey very hard.. evryday come hone sut down for hours and study, i dunt have tha stamina man! maths maths maths! afta dis year i hope ther is very lil of maths for me! so sick of it, okay nuff said herre. i'll probably post smthin else here later outta boredom, wahaha, im sleepyyyyy ugh! and mac sms-ed me! said he missed me, den dunnoe we were talkin den he said he still had feelings for me, when i said i kinda was interested in some gu he said he was jealous, funnie, i swear! okay enuff enuff...layer people, peace y'all~
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I am a daydreamer.
I think too much.
I am short.
I am gullible.
I love to laugh.
I am highly amuseable.
I can be quite random.
I am friendly,
yet I am very shy.
I love butterflies.
Go figure.
<3 to all I know and love.
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Nufail love
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Sheena angel
Yana gorgeous
Aaron shanks
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Fangster
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Shikin Chicken
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